FML

Didn’t know what to write for the title, so FML

I’m seeing this FML thing everywhere, don’t know if its an in joke, or just a new trendy abbreviation.

Anyway,

Nothing much has been happening. Uni, work and sleep.
I jigged my marketing class today, because I cbf’ed the 4 hour break in between. It was a relief today too, all classes have basically finished, and we have STUVAC. (for studying..haha.). and yea, stress will start again soon.

These long journeys on the train to uni have really hit me in the head, and it’s pissing me off. It literally takes for fucking ever to get to uni, and it is the most boringest, dullest three hours of the day, spent on the train. It makes me emo sometimes, just looking out the window, going .. what the fuck am I doing on here and sometimes I just look out the window and think about everything like its a dream, and when I get to my stop, forget everything and go WTF.

This week has been pretty relaxed to be honest. All our assignments are compelted and all classes are finished. I got many of my results back, one of which was my last accounting quiz, which I got a perfect 100. Accounting, I’m averaging a distinction for now, but Marketing, is a bare 55% pass. Although I havent got my Accounting group assignment back, which I honestly think we got like 1/15 for.
BusinessAS assignment is going to kill me. Its a 1200 word essay due in 2 weeks, which I have not even started. I don’t see myself starting it either, but I’ll try. Not a good mix with studying for the final exams.

Work in the weekend was intense. The traffic was quite overboard at the airport (air traffic). And I did the morning shifts, which really buggered me. I wake up to a night basically, because as soon as I step out that door, everything is still dark, and I still can see fucking stars in the sky. It drives me nuts sometimes, but oh well. I wished the snooze button would actually snooze for an extra 3 hours =].

Anyway, thats that.

Lebo’s is whats pissing me off at the moment too. On Sunday after work, at about 11PM, these tryhard Lebanese people, with their double cuts, and their Nike caps worn backwards, walked past this Indian guy and pushed him on the shoulder and whacked him across the head. It was quite empty that night, but I stood there for a bit and nodded my head and walked off. May not have been the smartest thing to do, but its enough for me to start bitching about these mother fuckers. I saw the guy as he came downt he escalators, and he was quite cut, and trembling (the Indian).

But srsly..

Who do these people think they? honestly, Gangster?, Does it make you feel good?. Having your haircuts like that, strutting, swearing every second word, pushing random people, even rolling people. Do you fuckers honestly think we look up to you, or make yourself any higher in this world? NOBODY looks up to you, NOBODY has respect for you, NOBODY thinks your cool, and no idea why you people live like that. Lebanese people are taking over Hurstville, originating from Dougies, but honestly, I like Lebanese people, I like Leb pizza, I respect the lawyers, doctors, and kebab shops. Not you fuckers who think you rule this world. Why don’t you’s do something with your life. Get a job instead of selling drugs. Get some real cash instead of cash you rob. I don’t know, but I can think of alot of things to say to you. This is not racist, as I do love Lebanese people, but just not the ones as described above.

Thats just a random rant that I wanted to get out of my system. Hope it has not offended anyone I know.

—

Vic

Live everyday like its your last =]

It’s been quite a shit week. Nothing’s been happening.
I downloaded a shitload of series, and been watching them all week basically. 24, and The Simpsons. Simpsons are finally on HD now and widescreen. It looks damn awesome.

The assignment that I was stressing about, was handed in. I think I have been put down for minimum contribution. So.. fuck it!, and I will just try hard in my End of Semesters.

BSXC is going to be on this Thursday, but people are all revoking their tickets and selling it. So I guess I wont be going to that.

My dads gone to china, and I feel free in a way.

Yea, dull week. The weeks have become a routine now. I’m getting sick of it, and time is going too fast. Don’t know if its good or bad. Its just work, uni and watching series or MSN. I cannot FUCKING believe 12 weeks have just gone by for uni. 3 weeks away from Mid Year Exams.

From what I have said in the last entry, I am really considering doing a trip to a new country, and starting new. I had a dnm with Nick a few days ago, and I’ve come to realise, I don’t want life to go the set way. Theres the person, who finishes their uni degree, get a job in the office, get married, have kids, buy a house, and get old, and die. I don’t know if when they get old, they will be happy with how they lived their lives. For me, personally, I think they would have wished they done more.
I want to live a life of experience, start from scratch in another country, and work my way up. Working my way up as in persistance, if I fail, I will try again, and again and again till I can live a life. Living on the street if I have to. Find a job, change jobs, live by myself, I dunno, everything that can give someone some real life experience.

Also “Live everyday like its your last”.

I reckon I am saying this, because of many failures in my life. Maybe if I had made it into USNW LAW, or some high shit, I would also live that cliche’d life.

Anyway, something for me to think about.

VictorXiong.

Esc.

Things have just been shit these few days.

Uni work..
Group assignments, just complete 0%, mother fuckers. For accounting have this viet guy, who is nerd, tries his hardest in all his subjects, studies, but I still get higher than him in the test. The thing is, he’s in my group, and he call’s me asking if I have started my part. I say, yea, I’ll do it soon. Then he goes, yea, we all haven’t started, but said that he tried starting it, and it was just too hard, and kept on leaving it. Okay, thats cool, thats stupid. He then goes to me, send me your part before 10 tomorrow, or I’ll put you down as 0 contribution to the group assignment. Are you a fucking retard?, you haven’t even started your part yourself, and you consider putting other people down for no contribution. Maybe if you were to act all leader like, you would’ve told me to start earlier, which I should have myself, but you don’t put someone else down for 0 contribution when you go “I kept on leaving it because it was too hard”. That pissed me off and I’m going to fucking go crazy if I get put down as a 0. Oh and its one of those weird viet guys. Same face as Jacky Chin, talks like him, acts like him, twitches, and just a fucking retard. That is what drives me nuts.
All other uni work has been pissing me off. I skipped economics last week, beacuse I didn’t finish a marketing part. I am very behind in everything, and I don’t even hope to pass some of the units. It’s just so fucking stressful. My exams are in a little less than a month, and I know nothing. Economics, I missed all lectures since week 4, and don’t GET jackshit, accounting, the NEW topics are just FUCKING crazy (failed my week11 quiz), BAS essay haven’t started, and marketing, I have no IDEA whats going on. I’m totally breaking down. Either I have been procrastinating too much, or just being lazy, or maybe Uni is just not the thing for me.

For the past few days, I’ve been having deep thoughts of dropping out of uni, and continue working, and work through life of experience or something, not this uni shit. Uni really isn’t the thing for me. I’ve had light talk to my parents about this situation, and they don’t entirely agree, but my dad said if I come up with a business idea, or write a good business plan, he will be happy for me to leave uni. Anything is better than uni. Some nights I literally sit on the computer and bang my head against that table, pulling my hair out. I just dont FUCKING get it. I think I’m just a dropkick, too stupid for uni. It’s wasting my time and wasting money.

Friends..
My personality is really shit. To be honest, my personality is weak. Even though I might be able to bash someone, or punch the shit out of someone, I just won’t do it. I’m chicken?. On the party on Friday at Havana, ****, nudged me on the shoulder. I pushed him back, and said fuck off dickhead. Well I’ve been hating **** for the past.. what.. 3 years?. I pushed him again, then he goes, what you gonna do, I’ve got all my boys, outside, right here right now. What.. all those asian guys? I don’t know, but I was pretty weak, I just walked off. For the past few days this incident just kept on making me think, what should I have done, should I have just punched him in the face, or what.. FUCK. SUCH a fucking tryhard. I guess, I wouldnt’ve punched him or anything, but whatever.
This blog is really getting personal, but it really makes me happier blogging it, instead of keeping it to myself.

Theres so many ppl that piss me off.
It might be just me, but I dunno.

There are just so many fucking retards in this world.

Work..
Work hasn’t been great. It’s getting repetitive as days go by. I’m getting so SICK of it. It’s the same shit over and over again. It’s just in and out, 8 hours go by. I don’t know, I’ve lost all motivation. Work is just pointless now, apart from the fact of income.. lol , which is the whole point of work. I really just can’t be fucked working. I lost family time, friends time, and most ‘importantly’ uni work time. I sometimes spend all shift thinking about uni work, and how I’m going to fail. Maybe it’s time to look for a new job.
It seems I have problems with commitments. Oh well.

Richard told me his brother works @ Kirspy Kreme, and so he did. I saw him on Monday, and had a chat to him. Pretty random, but yea, he’s just as cool as Richard. Lanky white guy, funny, and yea, “hey bro, come by and I’ll hook you up with free donuts”.

Anyway..
Another deep thought again, after this dropping out of uni shit, is just running the fuck away. Join the army. I really am considering it. It will fix up my personality, and might make me confident in life. But I didn’t think too deeply. I was only thinking of going to another country, and starting a life out there. Going to the US, or England or something. I don’t care, start bare minimum, no job, no place to live, but I want to experience my way up in life. That way, I will make the most of my life. I’d rather be sleeping in the gutter for a few months of my life, looking for a job, looking for income, and slowly building my way up. It may sound very stupid, but I am happy to do it. Though my parents would get weird about it.
Escape is my key world ESCAPE from everything.

Last week was pretty hectic. Assignments, work, and all that shit. Clubbing was alright , at Havana. Out side the club was preh weird. Gaybars, and guys holding hands, lesbians making out, trannies, and yea. Its Oxford Street.
Thursday was pretty random. I was late for uni that day, and randomly saw Frank at the train station. We ended up going to Parra nd chilled there for a while, because I already missed my tutorial when we got to Parra. Frank ended up jigging his Eco Tutorial too lol!. I also caught up with like Nickhuang/Revo/Jackiechan on friday.
But alot of things take my mind off things. But when I’m alone in the train, or just walking by myself somewhere, my head just goes crazy, thinking about this and that. It’s really killing me.

ESCAPE!!

-Victor Xiong
p.s Shit long blog, but whatever. Soz.

Saturday was quite random. Woke up in the morning.. and Nick called up after finishing his exam asking me to go to the city.
Well, I did call in sick from work, so I was like, meh, haven’t had a weekend off for ages. So I went to the city.
Basically played pool, and walked around the city.
I’m starting to feel the physics of pool
I nearly did a runner, but only did 5 balls in a row, then screwed up. Pool ends up getting tiring.. and yea. phased out after like an hour. We ended up meeting with Seano/Jared and Revo nd randomly saw like Garmon/Leith nd shit too.

But last night, we killed like 9 hours?.. Had dinner out too, then Nick slept over..
It really takes our mind off things I guess, killing time and all that. But facing uni/reality, it’s really quite shit.

Anyway I’m finding myself with a huge problem now. I buy a fuckload of scratchies and lottery tickets. I don’t know why, but it is quite like gambling. It’s becoming a problem. Yesterday I spent over 5 dollars on scratchies. The last few days, I bought the powerball jackpot tickets and random lotto things. Spent like 15-20 bux on this shit over the past week?.
ARGH.
But haha, the powerball jackpot, I ended up getting TWO numbers out of 6.
If only I had one more number, I would’ve gotten atleast 200 bux.
THAT JUST makes me want to buy more!!.
Which I am next week.
I’m becoming a douche…

NEED QUITLINE.

Oh yea, I went to allans music yesterday..
I AM totally craving a classical guitar now
I disliked it for a while, but just recently, classical guitar really seems to suit me. Looking to buy one soon, a cheap one.
Theres this iBanez one with a cutaway on it, which I am looking at.
GAHH waiting for the stupid stimulus package to arrive!!

Anyways, time to do this ACCOUNTING assignment!

victor xiong.
p.s This blog is moving to www.xiongz.com/blog soon. I still haven’t quite worked out how these blog codes work yet. Maybe in another week, I’ll find out.

Woah, I haven’t blogged for two weeks!

Just remembered about blogging…
I guess that’s what uni work has been doing to me

Lifes actually been treating me alright lately.
Things are starting to get settled.., uni, work, leisure and everything.

My uni break was pretty shit though. I had work basically 4 days of the break, and the other two days, we had group work assignment meetings for marketing.., which ended up 1 hour and 3 hours playing snooker. Though, we did do quite alot of work. The other days, I just stayed at home bludging…, when I’m meant to get my business portfolio done, which I ended up starting on the last night. I literally stayed up to 5:20 AM, and my eyes were like sore as crazy. It was meant to be 3 months worth of work. Oh well.

Last Saturday was Alisons birthday party, which I forgot about. At work Sean calls me and tells me to go, and I was like fuck.., I didn’t bring anything to wear. So that night I was just stuck in my work uniform. MEGA gay.. It was just clubbing I guess, and lots of drinking. I don’t remember much..

I got my accounting results back that day too. I was pretty happy. Got 81/100, which is my second Distinction. Feeling pretty happy about it. I topped the Blacktown campus according to my teacher (that shows how dropkick Blacktown is). But in Parra campus, its different. Albert got 90/100 for Accounting, which I think was top of Parra. Wadda beast. High-Distinction!

These two weeks have been alright I guess. Things are quite balanced, apart from my uni work. I have an accounting group assignment due on Wednesday next week, but, I only have contact to 3 out of the 5 group members, because the other two.. don’t turn up to tutorials?. A lebo guy and a blonde chick. Stressing like crazy about it. I don’t know what to do, but argh, stupid group assignments. Though marketing is alright. We finished the poster, and all ready to present. Our presentation is in week 13 though. Lucky last

Oh yea, the past week I had the flu. Just having headaches/running noses/sore throats and all that. Feeling like shit. But at the moment, I’m feeling better. Still feeling a little weak though.

Anyway,
Just an update
g’nite!