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lol long time no blog

well holdiays have been a total bludge. i tried to do work so many times, but never ended up going to it..
i played cs, watch family guy.. went to franks new house at one stage..
and fuk! no work done

and so yea school starts, first week, same shit ahaha
then.. i started thinking about really weird shit..
we got the UAC guide.. then uni started to pop into my head..
after watching all those american movies with people in college, or even going to unsw myself, for a numerous amount of times to do “study” courses there, it seems like such an awesome place..
but ok, ill be happy, well more than happy if i make it.., but right now, i have a feeling i wont make it.. at the rate of procrastination/not doingw ork and all that shit.. its goodbye HSC/UAI/UNI. i dont konw what im gonna think when that letter or text comes in, telling you the UAI or wateva.. [Sorry Victor, you have not made it into the following Uni: - - - - ]
like.. everyone is so smooth, they get their 80’s or 90’s in their subjects, have a lil stress, go on with their courses, go to school, study, play games, all balanced. get their uai, go into uni, finish uni, GRADUATE, find a fucken good job, ARGH!
but yea, i thoguht about that, if i dont make it into uni.. ill lose all my friends?, like.. i still want to be with most of them, or atleast a few of them, so we can still hang out or wateva during uni, and make friends at uni, .. they seem like such nice people..
i dont want to end up in TAFE.. bunch of hsc failers, well no offence, but its just so different to those people at uni.
uni is a place i dream of going..
walking up those classy steps, into the lecture halls, with professers teaching nd all that..
but…. argh..
i guess its my own fault for not trying hard enoguh..
right now i just feel like..
id ont know…… my head is spinning
i jsut want this HSC trials shit over and done with, then the hsc.
i want to escape……..
oh and on top of that, mr conner walks up to me.. hey victor, you know your phyisics ranking?, ur 81st/83 int he year

you gotta try harder.
so i nod, and he goes on with the lesson

and ye.. then i agreed to do accompanyment next week for jordan and pete, like playing sax and doing bass guitar for THEIR hsc. and i havent even got mine under way yet. theres this compulsary “enesemble” piece.
and so i find one, put together in about 2 and a half weeks, which was meant to be atleast a years work.

so yea..

parents a bit worried about me too, but oh well..
i hope i do come out as some sucess someway.. dont care wat.. music/busness/I.T..
not someone who lives at home with his parents, till 30 and have a shitty airport job.

argh… its so depressing

on a lighter side, this is what me and frank did in the holdiays
jay chou - simple love [cover]

empty

still the same!
im going crazy

except today.. i orgniased my music hsc, which involves a fuckload of work!
6 songs, 1 whole composition, and 1 test, written, with analisyed stuff
fuck!
and yea, i went to my piano teacher today, wasnt very happy.
i actaully walked there today.. took about 35 minutes
hurstville to kingsgrove
ahaha
then went to seans place.. when the bus randomly passed his place wtf haha

and yea.. that was a highlight of the day

i spent my last 2 and a half hours tabbing guitar songs

anyway im out
gnitez

what?

nothing special

i feel like shit. trials coming up. fucken screwed.
last chance to get a decent UAI
oh well..
parents worried shitless about me now, i can tell
always checking on me
but argh

i will try
past few days i havent done any work,

grrrrr

b-o-r-e-d

should be bored but yes.

i cant be fuggered studying..
the past two days ive been playing games, surfing net, chatting.. what the fuck!
only work i did was this morning, at tutoring,

went franks today.. swapped guitars ahaha

but omg.. everyones studying
makes me worried now, but .. im doing nothign about it
im an idiot

trials in 28 days? i think
god damn.

bitch

holidays!

funny, me and sean did something so shifty in the music room
we emptied our bags and put the guitar amps in, then took the bass guitar and ran for our lives

but yes, we made it out of the school all fine
and will return it after the holidays lol!

so we ended up goign seans house
and while walking back to school something scary hapepned
we look back
a wall of rain comes
no joke, it was rain coming like a wall, dry on front of us,
so we decided to run like hell..
rain stopped in 10 minutes

like fuck! we were soaked
and walked into english 20 minutes late.. funny

got our trial assesments today
oh goddddddddddddddddd

after that frank miao came over.. played some guitar and yea.. left, as i needed to go tutoring

preh random day

i hope to study for trials, as it is coming near
have been playing too much half life 2

dang.

anyway. outs

interesting days..

well yes, yesterday was interesting, did nothing at all at school
jigged first with desmond, went rehersal second and jigged third with desmond again..
surprising, its desmond, and he jigs
ahaha how ironic
so yea.. it was music night that day, so alot of shit was going on,
played bass and drums with sean for a lil while before i went home… to play games [half life - lost coast - maddest graphics], for 3 hours.. wat a geek
gosh
and yea i practiced 20 minutes of piano, for the night

and yes, the 20 minutes paid off as i screwed up on front of the 400 people watching, not just saying screwed up, i started playing random keys and it sounded like .. some random guy hitting random notes on the piano, and so i stopped for like a second, and skipped a whole section of it. and i blame not having music on the stage… and so i blame my self too

but wat the fuck, no one picked up that mistake except for my parents and desmond

and so yes, my night was all bright again.
ms blake, rielly, mr mcnaught and like 5 other teachers that were there were like, omg great performance, that was awesome, blah blah,

and what pissed me off was ms blake, walking up to my parents, going, oh yea.. you should be proud, and she starts talking to me going she never knew i was “that” good, she thought i played piano as some sort of shit to kill time or something. i mean.. wtf, im some lowlife dropkick who did nothing with my life?.. for 6 years shes been lecturing me about my studies, and now shes like wow!, he knows something!
maybe my explanantion isnt good, but she pissed me off.

anyway yes, it was an interesting day indeed.

then today.. didnt even bring a bag to school.. 1 period of music and im off.
how random.
spend the first free period with roman.. playing piano?, killed a whole hour..
and yea.. music, went jamming with the teacher? and jordan on the drums.. wat a good music period to spend, shouldntve even come.

then yea, our class got a letter from mr towner, how nice. preh sad but yea..
then went home and played a few hours of half life again.. !
im preh screwed at the rate im going

so then tonight, i started doing my work, until this man started screaming on the middle of the road. 3 police came, and arrested him o.0.. handcuffed and put into this box/van police car.. and they had torches searching all over the place for something.. no idea wat..
but yea, i was just sitting there watching for about 40 minutes,
its like watching a real crime show, “csi” or something, but this was interesting.
like i think they mightve found like a dead body in the car or something o.o.. (jks)

killed my day

out.

gnite