lol

and so on.

we got our english back.. 7/15! ahaha laughed my head off when i got it.. now i see how easy some teachers mark..
i expected 2 or 3

second period.. played drums nd guitar with johnny.. preh good time killa.. and yea..

third went music.. mr gamage and his drumming! ahah we were jammin

then fourth.. skipped maths bcz i had a rehersal
yes.. wat a random day its been

and at lunch today, in the VA room.. theres a certain fucker, who is a tryhard, korean, and says “fuck” every 3 words, and yes.. so i decided to imitate him
“fuck fuck this fuck that omg fuck fucken fuck fuck.”
he stands up and goes.. you better shut the fuck up..

and i was like.. wat are you gonna do, and he whispers mutha fucker, and sits back down..
wat a lil shithead.. like what sort of normal person says the f word, every single sentence, and tries to start shit when he couldnt even hurt a fly.. not saying that i can beat him or anything.. im weak as shit, but srsly..
pulls out a deck of smokes and starts smoking, swearing, sleeves rollled up, acting all hard.. like fuck..
these people need to fucken learn

yea.. and hope they get bashed up and learn a lesson one day.
i wouldve walked overtoday and punched the shit out of him.. but i held myself, or maybe waited till he walked over.

yea.. that kinda bugged me today.
like.. compare someone liek that, a tryhard lil shithead, to someone happy and calm like bailey or someone..

its really weird..
even to think why they choose to be that way, like what the hell.

and on a brighter side i got myself a new hardrive! 320 gig.. well mainly becuase i only have 300 megs left.. dang hah

anyway off to do some school work

okay

well.. i had tutoring in the morning at 8.. woke up at 7.30.. gosh it was terrible! as he went through my maths paper lol!
so yea. that killed my day.

anyway i got home.. started playing gta san andreas.. and yea killed a few hours..

okey, then mr owens calls up, telling me to perform on a music night on tuesday.. and i was like.. okay w/e.. fully random

then jlin came over in the arvo.. hung round for a lil while and went.

and basically.. i didnt get ANY work done today! omg

and just somethign that has bugged me this whole day..
the formal, am i going or not, do i have a date or not, and especially with the payment dates end of this week! im fking stressed.. goddangit

catching up 3 days work is scary for me! i hope i havent missed much.. preh stressing

and another stressful thing is tuesday night.. a performance unprepared.. and walking onto a stage on front of 600 people…………. fekkkkkkkk, but yes.. i have to cram like usual. but what will people think of me :S

ima sleep now, nite

bak from camp

wat a 3 days its been

took 3 days off school to go to music camp (band camp) but i dont like to call it that now because of certain stereo types.

left early wednesday morning.. and got there 3 hours later because of a stupid traffic jam..

and yea..

it was preh boring in fact.. but it was alright to get away from school for 3 days.. and that really worried me in a way..

3 days of school work i missed.. but.. its good in a way

so yea.. i was in the room with jordan, matday and jared..

and and and, this one time at band camp i ________________________

make up something urself

anyway.. nothign went my way.. i had an electric guitar in my room.. but then it broke.. as in the switch and sound wire broke.. then it didnt work.. and i shouldve brought my own.. then i was like Fuck!.. then at practice, i became sick.. because of :S i dunno.. maybe bcz mr gammagay was sick.. but yea.. that was shit.. then played poker at night.. lost 1 dollar . fuck!
then yea everythign was fukedd.. my sleeping bag at night was cold .. like a fridge.. preh fucked

food was good.. and everythign was good.. i didnt go to any activities though.. haha=]

and as year 12’s we didnt need to line up or anything for dinner.. so it was all kooll

got back home and had tutoring at 5!
so then yea i was tired and went to sleep at 630

wat a 3 days its been

and now saturday.. i spent the whole day.. playing comptuer and watching tv.. omggggggg

anyway looking forward to school.. again on monday

trials in 6 weeks

goodnite

same

meh

morning went to school at like 10.. missed the seminars!

anyway we got our maths marks! and i failed by 1 mark.. fuck! 27/56
wtf!! i tried all lesson trying to find 1 mark

anyway, today it was alrite, we had a profressional music guy come in for music today, helped us alot!, preh happy.. and then at lunch, played a bit of guitar with seano in the hall..
preh fun

then went hurstii library.. studied for like half n hour lol!.. and didnt manage to get anything in

then saw roger at hrustii.. caught up with him bcz havent talked to him in ages!

lol!

and then derek quan! wooooot.. 2 years no see.. so we caught up a bit too.. and met some of his fortstreet friends..

and yea.. that was the main highlight for the day

went home.. on computer,

and CAMP tomorow:D

packing now. toodles

yay!.. not

well.. shit day i guess..

played a morning of basketball .. and warmed me up for the rest of the day =].. so first we had english .. boring shit.. doing some play :(..

then i had a free.. and yea..played drums and visited the VA room where pat monir and ryan were doing art 0.o

yea.. then third period fucked everything up.. for the rest of the day..
got our tests back!

and i got……………..
12/30..
wat a surprise eh..

fuck.

fuck fuck fuck.

anyway.. after that period.. i had a free last.. so i played a bit of guitar and bass with sean.. then went home..

preh shit……….

next test back is maths..

god.

going to sleep now

The .. Week.

what week its been

tests!

anyway monday we did english .. and fuck! lol.. they set a poem to study.. not we get to pick one.. so yea.. they set one i DIDNT study
made up so much bullshit.. like.. the title of the poem was french, which meant something (forgot what i made up)

then went jlins house for like a few hours..

but yea.. then we had music performances.. went well.
and rofl! we had a year meeting, theyre gonna cancel our formal and jerseys if we dont pay up! ahahaha

so yea.. that was the main highlight of the day.. rest of the day.. i studied o.0 or maybe read like 5 words.. with ushan monir and alison…

went home and yea! my relatives left! so the house is more emptier.. and ppl can come over now

tuesday….. no test!
spent the whole fucking day doing the music “composition”….. and yea.. it was meant to be a “months” work.. or even longer.. so yea .. made it up in about 8 hours, wrote some notes, and yea.. ready fro wednesday.

wednesday we had the english collage due.. and yea.. i finished taht on saturday.. we had a 20 minute written test on it, and fuck yea!!! i think i went awesome in it!, i wrote even more than what i did in that test on monday lol!

and yea.. i then bummed at jlins place and his mum cooked me lunch!
so yea.. bummed until the music thingo.. and it went so well….. i managed to fool the teacher!
gahahahahah

anyway.. after.. seano came over and bummed for a bit

after that i was meant to study but lol! i played games till like 9 .. even thoguh i had tests netx day

so yea.. i crammed about 30 minutes and went to sleep

thursday.. i had maths and physics

gosh.. maths i went okay in.. but i still think i failed ahah! dammit

then physics.. i actualyl wrote something in the test for once!! rofl
understood alot of it
but still think i failed

friday.. whole day off!!

stayed home all day.. and umm kenny woke me up and came over in the morning.. nd then they all went to aquatic or something?.. i cbfed goin so yea..

played games.. then in the arvo, sean came over.. play some guitar and went haha

satuday.. stayed home with family.. then went shopping at hurstivlle.. randomness.. got my self a hair cut and .. went shopping.. then saw jeff and his gf in coles.. and i was like wtf aha.. and then matt au popped up.. and i was like wat the fuck again

so yea.. random

then family friends came over.. and i stayed in the room playing halo! .

sunday.. had tutoring in the morning! fuck had to wake up at 7.30…. and anyway..

sitting here right now.. bottle of beer and playing GTA…

preh good waste of time.

wat a week its been..

and i got music CAMP ON Wednesday!! WOOHOO

great time to chill off..

i am looking forward to the upcoming

and something ken brought up made me wonder..

wat happens after hsc? when we all finish .. go uni, or get a job or wateva.. like is everything going to change?.. like we might not even talk to eachother after hsc..

and after hsc.. were all gonna be bored haha..

but anyway.. somethign to think about

toodles

DumDiddlyDum

So yea.. i had tutoring at 8 this morning, woke up at 7.. haha it was so hard! so i got up at 7.45.. and was late to tutoring

Basically today.. it was that, then i did my physics assignment all day, and played piano..
ENGLISH Exam tomrorow! and i havent read a thing.. bcz i was worreid about physics
LOL!

anyway.. exams tomorrow.. oh dang =[

and my relatives are leaving for mainland now.. so yea.. im free again! i guess

toodles

Dear blog,
Well, I atleast did something today.., I finished my english collage, practiced piano for my Monday performance exam, and.. read through some of my english stuff. I felt like I achieved something today! woohoo.

Yea. So basically today was a bit of work, and yea.. a bit of bludging too.

OH and HAHA “Ritchie Rich”.. that movie was on today.. watched it haha! awesome movie

anyway

off to sleep now, have an early morning tutoring lesson tomrrow at 8 =.=

Title:

Worst morning ever…… woke up at 7.. and had to get to school at 7.30 for a music class doing nothing !

so yea.. i played a bit of guitar.. then.. yea.. first period it was music again.. the teacher was playing guitar all lesson.. and jordan on the drums.. then paul on the piano.. fucking noisy shit.. so i got a headache form that

and then.. we had dkk (inside thing)

after….. i had a free.. and was int he VA room playing with steves laptop..

then after i had physics!, where the teacher approved my work for the first time! woohoo!

so yea.. then finished school.. playd basketball with sean, jlin and sabiq.. was quite fun owned sesan and jlin hard

anyway,.. it was fun today.

now i have to go tutoring =\

toodles.

4 Days left!

and……………………….

school.. morning - music!
we did.. the past papers .. and singing! .. omg that was funny

then a free period.. studied at the library! woohoo.
was wtih jason upstairs

then maths.. ahah didnt concentrate.. so i didnt end up doing a single querstion..

english… did the play.. and yea! spend 3 quaters of the period bludging.. bcz ms haitidus.. went offtopic and started talking bout everything….

THEn after school i went hurstville library.. omg it was so full!
so yea… studied and studied.. for 4 horus then got home.. and now im here again

gnites

titles are hard to think of..

today…

jigged first period.. maths i cbfed..

then had physics.. and then englihs..

and we had an extended day!

and yea.. omg i paid for my jersey today.. $82.00

fuck! so xpensive.. on top of that
Music Camp - $250
Formal - $115 x2
Yearbook - $100? i dunno..
Afterparty - $35 x2
Phantom Excursion - $60

parents making me pay.. some.. but like.. fuck off? i got no money now

got home now.. havent opened a single book
exam timetables were handed out.. fucking scary

oh dear!

chatting on msn atm. fuck!

out

omg……

im so damn screwed!

yesterday - monday, whole day off and i was meant to study.. but…………………………….

yes.. i didnt open a single book or read a single word.. maybe a few words on youtube.. thats about it..

havent started anything.. collage, studying, music comps, and its all due next week!

anyway, today.. school.. long day.. had maths first then music. our teacher was away.. so we.. played games all period?

then had early day.. home at 1:10.. but yes.. all the way till now.. still no study

someone needs to hit me in the head before i do anything

anyway.

out

hmm..

Last day at work!… gosh its sad
so many nice people… so many good lucks.. hugs.. nd.. omg =[ its so sad leaving..

so yea..

i should be studying!! i havent opened a book since.. friday afternoon.

gnites

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I have been inspired .. once again .. to create a blog.. maybe by Garmons blog

Anyway.. it seems blogging is something that you can let your anger, your sadness or your feelings out..

Well.. recently alot of things have been digging into my head.. creating shitness of everything. I just resigned my job.. which i dont think i will ever get again, really sad.. And for wat.. i dont fucking know.. it should have been my choice.. but its the pressure of my parents. and maybe my hsc, which to tell the truth i do not give a fucking shit about. Really.. i am going to school to wat.. see friends?or make my parents happy? not to dissapoint them?

Yes.. about school.. Since the start of year 12 everything started fucking up. reports, friends, life, and everything!.. i got 52 for english, 77 for maths, 45 for physics, 63 for music and 95 for music ext. and you know what im ranked?.. 6th last in the year.. out of 160 people?.. i am known to be a “dropkick” now.. which you fuckers say.. and you know what? i dont give a shit..
right now i have this thing stuck in my head with my parents.. I am VERY worried about dissapointing my parents with my outcome of the hsc.. i personally dont care, but my parents.. i dont want them to think i was raised a dumbshit and they both become emo or someshit. They don’t think im going as bad as it is.. this stresses me out everyday.. What are they going to do after my hsc when they see my outcome? will they kick me out?, wish i never existed? i dunno..

i give up.

About a month ago, i had thoguht of running away from home, runnign away for like 20 years.. get something done with my life, or join the army or omsething, be someone new, forget all the past.. but i dont see that happening.

that brings me to friends at school.. everythings changed.. some people have just drifted off.. as that i mean.. really really close friends.. like.. it goes to the extent where we walk past eachother and we dont say hi or anything to eachother.. I dont exist in their world anymore.. I remember back in year 9 and year 10, we use to hang aroudn everyday, play basketball after school, go to all these restarants after school everyday.. is it me or what.. thats caused this change? why is it me.. am i different person now?, am i a dickhead?.. my personality?.. i got too many questions.. but it will be stuck in my head for the rest of my life.
What i also realised is some close friends act differnetly upon differnent people.. like.. if i talked to him the day bfore, all kool nd shit, then the next day at school hes with another group of people, he’ll join nd act like them.

And many other people are just fuckers.. plain fuckers.. which i cannot name.. you guys need to grow up.. grow a fucking brain. this world does not ‘revolve’ around YOU.. you dont just tell someone to ‘move your fucking seat’, or ‘move ur fucking stuff’.. what the fuck is wrong with you seriously..

Somedays i have daydreams.. wanting to smash the shit out of them.. or atleast throw a punch into their face to shut their foul fucking mouthes up..
i am warning now.. i will SNAP one day.

I havent been down to the basketball courts for the past month or so.. really.. its shit down there now.. people down in the passive area are much friendlier.. everyones cool with eachother, its like a family there. The basketball courts.. well there are some cool people but most are just fuckers.., they think theyre some top shit. And really.. all i see is people swearing at eachother.. It just doesnt work down there for me..

Why can’t everything be what it use to be.. year 7.. or even like year 1 or wateva.. the joys of running around.. playing soccer or climbing mokey bars or wateva.. look at now.. everything has changed.. i dont see myself in this world now. mainly because of how friends are treating me now days.. and school work..

so yea.. now.. i sit here.. confused.. dont know whats happening.. what my future will be.. what my future firends will be.. and what i will be like in 20 years time.

I also wonder, what it would have been like if i started hanging with a different group of people from year 7… Would i be someone different?, would i be where i am now?
these mysteries..

good night,

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